The doorbell rang. We were expecting a visitor.
My husband opened the door and greeted the man standing on our front porch. After a quick exchange, the man entered our home. His feet pounded up the stairs as he followed my husband to our spare bedroom. I followed right behind and watched as the man inspected the piece of furniture.
His hands walked across the top of the crib as he was pulling on the bottom base to make sure it was sturdy. After stepping back and staring at it for a bit longer he finally said, “This is beautiful, I think my wife is going to love it…I’ll take it.”
Within moments, the last six years flashed before me.
I saw my baby boy standing up in that crib for the first time.
I remember the giggles that came from that crib in the early morning hours and I remember how big I thought my baby was when we transitioned him to a bed. I also remember the days my daughter spent in that same crib years later.
What was such an integral part of our lives is now going to the home of someone else. Another baby will be spending time in the crib that used to be part of our home.
As the man started to lift the crib up, haul it down the stairs and out our front door, my heart sank a little. When he loaded it into the back of his truck and began to tie it down, it was really bittersweet for me. He got into the truck, started the engine and waved goodbye. In less than a minute, his truck and that crib were gone.
Forever.
I am not longing for another baby by any means…but I do miss many of those precious days I spent with my babies. Because they are far from babies now.
Maybe I feel so melancholy because of everything that’s going on in my life right now, or maybe it is just another milestone that every mom experiences. At this rate, I’m going to blink my eyes and my babies will be heading off to college and the sad thing is I can’t do much about it.
I just wish I could slow things down.
Or try and freeze some of these moments a bit longer.
Because it’s all just happening so damn fast.
But what I have to hold onto is the fact that nothing will ever change the memories I have made, including those made in that crib which was hauled off to another place and time – a simple piece of furniture that soon waits for another new life to begin.
As a side note, it’s been a crazy past three weeks for my family. We recently moved and my kids are attending new schools, so you can imagine the adjustment we’ve all had to make. But, I know this is the right move for all of us and in due time, it will all be worth it in the end. As for my blog and my readers, I have missed YOU so much! My online friends through Facebook and Twitter have really made the difference when I was feeling displaced directly following the move. My online “friends” were the ONLY thing that didn’t change since we moved, and for that, I feel grateful. I’m looking forward to another new journey that awaits.
